Just a dream

godddd, this actually works ^^


haix, dunno whats ' gotten into
me recently! changed from
sec 2... maybe cause this year is crazy? no idea...
emoing alot lesser nowadays; even during bu.
i think i forgot how to be happy from
within as well as to be sad. Everything seem
so neutral and meaningless.

LOST oncemore, like a sheep in a desert. i have no idea where to go , what to do
i really want to stop living like that.
i am getting more and more paranoid along the years

starting to feel how superficial i am. and how i have no one to really talk hth to and receive encouragements .
Sometimes, putting up a strong front is really tiring and sickening.
adding to that, i am even more uncomfortable with my appearance.. i got fatter!

cant help being someone who is so unsecured. got no idea what to do. confidence in myself is leaking away by the minute. I am scared . i realised how ppl misunderstood me , i really dont mean that! i mean it in another way. maybe imma getting too complacent and haolian? thats why people are finding me a bother?

aint got any idea. feeling tired and shagged